Moment of transparency

Hey there empoWered One,
 
Happy Make It Happen Monday. I pray you had an amazing week on purpose and that you are continuing to work on your dreams and goals. As I write this, I am struggling with disappointment...
 
You might be asking why?
I am struggling because I missed our Make It Happen Monday Instagram and Facebook Live conversation tonight and I don't like to NOT show up when I have committed myself to my purpose and to those who are assigned to my purpose.  But I am also struggling because I made a commitment to myself to not harbor guilty feelings when I have to take a break from everything in order to show up for myself. I made a decision that in order to truly be the best and most authentic version of myself, I must be transparent about where I am in my journey so that I can give others permission to do the same.
 
So here's my moment of transparency:
Today was a rough day for me and my body told me that I needed to take some time to rest and rejuvenate.  While I have learned the importance of listening my body, I have to admit I don't always take heed. Especially if it means my body is competing with my commitments. So while, I decided to "work" from my executive suite (aka my bedroom) today, I was so busy honoring my commitments that there was not a lot of rest and rejuvenation happening. Before I knew it, the time was approaching for our Make It Happen date and I found myself exhausted and in extreme pain. After some frustration, reflection and embracing of the truth, I wanted to share some insight I gained in hopes of helping you if you need it.
 
What I took away from today's experience:
1. I am an everyday work in progress. That means I don't always get it right even if I had it all figured out yesterday. I cannot beat myself up for not making the right choices all the time. I have to accept it and do the work to do better.
 
2. I have to own my right to self-care and not feel guilty.  I cannot show up for others if I have not shown up for myself first. Yes I knew this but the true "work" is to remind myself of this as often as I need to.
 
3. The world around me will still happen even if I am not there in the center of it. So if I know that to be true then I don't have to apologize for putting myself first when I need to.
 
I will continue my work to be transparent. Transparency is not perfect. In fact, it's the exact opposite. Transparency means that I am one step closer to growing into the woman I am destined to be. It means that I have the unique opportunity to help another woman own her right to be perfectly imperfect and not feel the need to apologize for it.  Transparency means that in the midst of my pain, my frustration and sometimes tears my determination to embrace it as I move through it and continue to MAKE IT HAPPEN makes me amazing on purpose.
 
I pray you have an intentionally amazing week and I will see you next Monday.
 
-DaVita

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