When I was in the midst of my sickness and my body was changing, I spent a lot of time in “hiding. When I would take pictures or get forced into pictures, I would attempt to hide my body behind others or only take perfectly angles selfies so I could hide what I did not like. As I look back on those pictures, I am reminded not only of the physical pain but of the mental pain I endured every day because I could not accept and love myself enough to not be ashamed of my appearance. Thankfully, through God, prayers, internal and external work, my body and mind was healed and restored.
I have spent the last year trusting God for the continued opportunity to use my testimony to inspire others to pray, love and work through their obstacles. In doing that I have had the opportunity to stand in front of the camera multiple times and not be ashamed of what I saw. Lately, I have been feeling an internal shift in my body and my most recent photos are evidence that change is happening again. The old feelings of wanting to hide have immediately crept back in, making my daily work to love me no matter what a little hard. But as I am a daily work in-progress, I will not allow anything I am experiencing internally or externally define me or keep me from the promise God has for my life.
Today I “Throw Out” the need to “look” the part and to hide behind the perfect picture. I will embrace and own my truth as it evolves and changes because I know that it is all a part of my whole story and my journey to be amazing on purpose. #TellTheWholeStory #IAmAmazingOnPurpose
My goal is to take the time to focus on another "ROSE" in need and seek ways to bless, support and encourage her through her current challenges.